Cleansing rain.

Rise like a bird and cry like the rain….


“And when I cry, let me cry like the rain, cleansingly, with all my my heart.”

This is a line from a song that often sings inside me, while the dogs take me for our evening walk. It starts with “and when I rise, let me rise like a bird, joyfully”.

You know this song? No? You can find the whole song on YouTube.

The second line is “and when I fall, let me fall like a leaf gracefully, without regrets”.

It is a very nice song to kind of chant, while walking.

While shuffling my cards this morning, to pick my “a card a day” card, this song was quietly floating in the back of my head. The Three of Swords jumped out of the deck!!

Like an air bubble surfacing from deep water, I heard the line – “-and when I cry, let me cry like the rain, cleansingly, with all my heart.

It clicked into place. The meaning of this feared card made sense!

Suddenly I saw this gloom and doom card from a different angle. It is a hurt-card. No doubt about that. Three swords of hurtful thoughts or hurtful words, pierced through the heart. As if the swords weren’t enough, clouds pouring real quality rain, real Norwegian west-coast rain, completes the painful image.

In the background the sky is dark. But, actually, not that dark. It is darkest just beneath the clouds.

I see clouds in the Tarot as symbolizing emotions and feelings. They are the water-element in the suit of the air-element. For me. That is how I see it. Just to keep safe, I emphasize that this is how I see it. You are very welcome to disagree.

For me the Three of Swords, today, is all about letting go of hurt and pain. Let the clouds release their burden of heavy water. When they do, there will be no more clouds, no more dark shadows in the sky and the heart will be cleansed. Healing can start.

“and when I cry, let me cry like the rain, cleansingly, with all my heart.”

And the sun shines again!!

The corner of shame

The corner of shameStand in the corner and be ashamed of yourself!

Did you have a corner of shame in your classroom? Or in your home? In my school we did. Different teachers had different places they thought were appropriate for this purpose. Some would send us to a corner of the classroom, where we would stand until penance time was over. We had to face the wall and not turn around for the entire five, sometimes ten, minutes. An eternity to stand, ashamed, in a corner.

The air would turn thick from collective uneasiness. Even the innocent ones felt the shame during those minutes. Other teachers would send us out of the classroom, out to stand in the corridor. We were to feel the shame by being separated from the rest. I don’t remember having stood in that corner. I was a good girl. It was usually one of the boys who had to experience this, as far as I remember. But the shame! I felt the shame as if it was my own. Every time. Without exception.

At home we were sent to our room. I have seen children being locked up in closets or locked outside in the cold, to feel their shame. There are many ways to do this.

I think my method,with my children, was to have them sit on a chair in the kitchen, while I was cooking or washing the dishes. They had to sit there until they felt like nice children again. I regret having done that now. Our former teachers and parents probably also regret a lot of methods they used. Now are older, and wiser. Had I only known then what I know now.

Nonetheless, the damage was done.

Many who come to me for life coaching through the Tarot, actually seek help to free themselves from the trauma of different types “shame corners”, in order to get on with their lives. Statements like.. “you are in the way”, “you talk too much”, “how could you be so stupid”, “you are so slow”, “you are so clumsy”, “you can do better than that” have the same shaming effect. They all add up to the sum of “You are worthless!”

So many of us still carry this “I am worthless” around in our stomachs while spending all our energy, trying to prove the statement and the feeling false. To ourselves.. To our parents. To our spouses. To our working places. To life itself. It blinds us, and ties us,

Fighting to be seen, heard, valued, loved….. Not able to recognize it even when we are…seen, heard, appreciated, loved….

Words have such power.

Both negative and positive words have power. So often, one negative experiences can erase nine good ones. Why? Because our basic belief about ourself was often formed in a “corner of shame”. It matches our basic belief about ourself. It confirms what we already know.

Compliments and thank you’s are wonderful. Wonderful to give and wonderful to receive. But on someone who still lives in the “corner of shame” they peel off like water on an oily surface. A compliment, however honestly meant, can produce a smile and a bow, without ever reaching the recipient’s heart.

Thich Naht Hanh said, “People have a hard time letting go of suffering. Out of fear of the unknown, they prefer suffering that is familiar”.

Blessings work where the compliment fails. A blessing allows the “blesser” to be a bridge between the divine and the “blessed”.

A bridge for God to reach out.

That is why, I bless everything from my coffee to the Empress and Emperor of Japan.

And now, I bless you! May your day be blessed with kind words, and smiles to warm your heart, today✨


祝福 Celebrate Abundance

I bless everything from my coffee to The Empress and Emperor of Japan.

Blessing and being blessed is magical thing. I love old blessings and I love making up new ones. Believing that everything takes on a different glow, when blessed, I bless everything from my coffee to the Empress and the Emperor of Japan.

I love both the giving and receiving of blessings. The best is to be in a state of blessedness, though. The state of feeling totally blessed. When I can, I go to trees to tank up on blessedness. Just like one would search out a favorite coffee shop to relax and get today’s dose of caffein, I search out a favorite tree to relax and tank up on blessedness.

Yesterday was such a day. I felt tired and depleted. I needed to recharge. That is what I am doing in the picture above.

I was blessed.

But when I woke up this morning,still in a state of blessedness, I suddenly was not satisfied by the word “blessing”. I knew what the word means. I knew what happens when I bless or receive a blessing. But the letters B, L, E, S, S… Where does the word come from and what does it mean? I get like this sometimes. I start pondering the meaning of sounds in a word. . What do they mean?!

Maybe this is a side-effects of living in Japan, where each letter or character has a meaning. A word, with more than one character, is a combination of meanings. Knowing the meaning of the characters, adds a different and deeper meaning to a word.

But before checking out the meaning in Japanese, I looked it up in English. On the net. The definitions were almost always linked to the Christian Bible. Strange… Don’t they know? I know, for certain, that believers from all religions bless each other and that this is not a Christian phenomena. Muslims, Hindus, Sikhs, Shintoists, Buddhists. You name the rest. We all have a word that, translated into English, means BLESSING.

My husband, who is Japanese and who is always wiling to help, but does not have a clue of what I am looking for, helped me by writing the characters for me and finding answers by talking to Siri’s Japanese twin sister. The Japanese know how to write the characters, but they are not always aware of or interested in the deeper meanings of them. After a while of digging and searching my Ahaaa-moment finally came.

I knew the word from before. Shukufuku. And I knew it is a combination of two characters.

祝 and 福. Shuku, the first character, means to celebrate. Fuku, the second character, means good luck, having a lot…abundance. The two combined means to celebrate abundance! Wow! I did a happy dance! To be in a state of celebration of all the good things, of all the good luck, the happy, big and small things that life is made of! That is bliss. That is being in a state of blessedness.

I hereby adopt this definition of “bliss”, “bless” and “blessedness”!

May you celebrate your abundance!

 May you always find a reason to celebrate your abundance!

May your life be a celebration of life’s abundance.


Gratitude Lamps

Hello and thank you for opening my blog!

To be honest, I am a little scared and feel a little lost here. The walls are still full of possibilities….the walls need painting, the showcase has only one item…

Where do I start?

This is my first blog post here, inside my little Tarot Reading shop.
I am in a new room, in a new space that I have created for myself.
I want to be very mindful about what I put in here…
I think I will continue like I started, by being honest.

To be honest, I use more than just the Tarot cards in business. I combine the Tarot with Gratitude.
Out comes the most wonderful things. I know that. I have tried it, and experienced the wonderful things.
But….sometimes Gratitude can be very difficult to practice. You wake up to a long to-do list waiting for you, your head is full of cotton, your legs won’t move ….
You know what I mean, right? For me, getting on to my yoga mat and do my yoga-session on a lazy day is a much lower hurdle than to practice Gratitude on a bad morning.
Bad mornings are bad! But the intervals in which they appear are getting longer and longer, thanks to Gratitude.

This all reminds me of the piano we had at home, when I was a kid. I remember how I could not even touch the keys when I felt grumpy! Let alone play, forget enjoying the music. I disliked the whole shape of the piano when I felt grumpy or sad or angry… I would not go near it. If anyone would ask me to play at that moment, I would snap at them and thunder out of the room.
Have you tried singing when you feel grumpy? Have you? You can’t sing and be grumpy at the same time, right?
The moment you start singing the grumpiness disappears.
So why do we not sing when we are grumpy?
Why do we not practice gratitude when we are afraid, andfear of scarcity or aloneness is filling our world?
Because we want to stay in that grumpiness, the anger, the fear, the loneliness. There are so many names to these feelings. You may choose the one that rules your space from time to time.
The feeling gives us a strange power. It does not feel good.
But still…maybe because we know this place, we want to stay there.
You want to stay there, and yet you know you want to get out of it.
It is easy with the grumpy part. A melody from a radio or the sound of laughter will magically loosen it up and it will evaporate by itself.
Fear of poverty, the fear of never being good enough, grief, sadness… These are tough nuts to crack.
Hard to make disappear. Not easily dissolvable.
They are like a big, black empty spaces, trying to gobble us up.
There are plenty of things that can create huge, deep and black holes in our hearts. The loss of job. Not getting a job. Loosing a loved one. Homesickness. Not finding a life-partner. Being in a bad relationship. Guilt. You probably have your own word for your black hole. Or holes.

This may sound naive, but! it does work…
I have tried it out.
The thing is called Gratitude. It works.
Like a charm, it works. Like magic!
It is so simple and sounds so basic but it can actually turn your whole world around!
It forces you into an other space. It fills up the space inside you and the space around you. You will be able to watch the space of those holes getting smaller and smaller until one day, and this works fast, you can not see them anymore. You will be able to re
remember them but you can not see them with your feelings anymore.
That is magic, don’t you think?

So, this being my new display-room in my brand new shop, the first item I want to put into place is GRATITUDE.

I hereby furnish it with gratitude-lamps hanging from the ceiling. This way, all I see in here will be lit up by gratitude. The show-case is lit up by gratitude and on my Tarot-reading table I put a fragrant gratitude-candle.
If you stop by my store during your night, may the light of gratitude shine on you.
And, off course, there is a beautiful gratitude-lamp by the counter. I almost forgot to place one there!

Thank you, thank you, thank you for reading all the way through.
As a blog-opening gift, please feel free to bring gratitude with you when you leave my store and go out into your day.

Breathe and smile,